sleep.

by Soogie

all of the bedrooms were full. we had too many guests.

sooyoung had done something to hurt mom’s feelings, so he stayed with her in her room.

i wondered, why can’t he sleep downstairs with the rest of the boys? meh?

but he had to get up at 4am to take a few people to the airport… so i figured, if i stay awake until some of the boys leave, then i’ll be able to sleep in peace. so i stayed up late, doing their laundry, drinking some something, watching inception with one of my new-found friend.

(it’s funny, how i used to think that he was sooo sketchy when i first saw him)

the boys had blankets on the floor to sleep on, so i figured, i should sleep on the couch.

except one of them freaking fell asleep on the couch. -___________-;;;

so i watched “inception” with my new, cute, sketchy, adorable friend on his macbook pro while laying on the blankets.

fell asleep there, of course.

i woke up, i don’t know how much later, because it was so freaking cold.

the blanket was twisted in a weird way, so half of my body wasn’t even covered.

he was curled up in fetal position because he was cold too…

i was tired. so i scooted closer to him. my back touched his arm, so i stopped. i fell asleep again.

i woke up a second time. his hand was resting on my back. he’s a lot closer to me than i remember. but it felt good.

it felt good to have someone so close. someone so near. even if he really isn’t someone i should like. it felt good that someone was not disgusted at me for being so damn snuggly. we were both cold. i was hesitant. i wanted to turn around and face him, put my head on his chest. but i didn’t. that would be too close.

for a second, we rolled away from each other… but then there was this huge air gap that filled with cold. so we scooted closer together again.

i woke up to his funky alarm. so did he. he turned it off, looked at me with tired, puffy eyes, groaned, and fell back asleep.

i tried… but by then i was wide awake, and too cold to sleep again.

i walked away like nothing ever happened.

nothing. happened.